AlchemyHearts17

It's funny. Sometimes when I look back on my old stuff with @Timeboy08 and angelthewingedcat, I remember doing a lot of..crazy ideas with my characters in a tone that could've fit a Disney/MLP world.

My old stories are mostly gone, due to my teenage self constantly breaking laptops at the time/getting viruses too...I didn't know how to take care of them that well, okay? I still kind of don't, my sound is off from getting liquid into the speakers, but my mac laptop still works. And I currently have a dell laptop for travel purposes alongside a backup in case...that and gaming, but that's besides the point.

Tracy was odd. First she was a Ben Tennyson-like character, then a ghost like Danny Phantom. Then a Ninja from Ninjago to a witch with the Omnitrix included. She jumped from being a personality similar to her current self who was finding her birth parents..to someone with a dark counterpart based on Dark Danny. Two of them. Then I tried to go for an evil canon self and those who know me longer, know how that went. I think I had accidentally decided to get inspired with Mal from Descendants and Midnight Sparkle from Equestria Girls, when I should've just stuck with what I knew. Was I trying to go for a Descendants-like direction, or a Ben Tennyson direction? I don't fully know, but she wasn't defined properly. Though some traits did linger onto her current self...just not completely as I improved her a lot since then by making her a witch with no Omnitrix or ghost powers (though I will admit, the shapeshifting power Tracy currently has, was indeed a little nod from her time with the Omnitrix). Old Tracy was all over the place and a generic 'Mary Sue' trope. Now she's evolved since then and I couldn't be happier with the end result. Because back then she was like a rip off of Rainbow Dash, Twilight Sparkle and Ben Tennyson. Now she actually has a personality and a backstory.

Tricia had an awkward start too. First she was 'evil' and I was clearly getting inspired by Frozen, Sunset Shimmer and Elphaba from Wicked (with heavy obvious Frozen inspirations) as I continued. Some of her current personality was there, but not exactly. Oh, she had magic too. Ice magic. Frozen was just getting popular at the time and we went so overboard with Let it Go (largely why I don't like it as much now) it was hard to tell what was the end goal.

Annie had a weird Cinderella/Anastasia, thing going on. Shirona was a Saturday Morning Cartoon villain who jumped from a weird rival to..a serious villain that brought Light back, because..why? And I jumped between AUs that I tried to connect for some reason. Plus multiple weird time-travel craziness alongside stories that were unintentionally similar to Disney Channel's Teen Beach movie. And then I suddenly jumped into next generation stuff too. Shirona wasn't even defined that well outside of being Albedo and Blackfire's kid, which wasn't even brought up that much. (I still kind of ship Albedo and Blackfire..but as a crack thing). And the next, she was freaking Light's love interest, a villain who doesn't even care about romance and would rather use women for his own gain because he wanted to be God...because why? I have no goddamn clue. And I momentarily thought of shipping Tricia with either Doyle Blackwell from the Secret Saturdays (with Tricia an adult) or Draco Malfoy..because again. I had no clue what I was doing.

Sometimes I wonder with the development I've been doing through memes, if I could've fixed them. I lost most of my old files so I can't go back and view them, or even doing a Nostalgia Critic like critique. I regret a lot of of my old actions. I really do, especially with the introduction of the endless Evil Tracy disaster.

I was a stubborn brat. I'm not going to be shying away from that. Do I miss my old stuff? Hell no, but I kind of sometimes I wish I was more careful so I can have a good laugh about my old stuff. I've got a tutor now to help me with my writing and drawing, so I am pretty thrilled to see what that'll do for my writing this year.

Truthfully, I cannot wait to show you guys what I got planned for this year. ^^

I just wanted to say thank you, all of you that commented or supported me over the years. I really appreciate it a whole lot.

Honestly, I know I didn't have to go into that much detail of my history on these past few years. But I've been so quiet about certain things, I just felt like I had to you, you know? To get it off my chest now before I forgot or ignored it altogether.

I mentioned this before, but I'm going to try to get back into a writing habit. I've been talking about this with angelthewingedcat and I kind of think I was going with, Annie being the mature one a bit wrong in a way. Which is why I'm going to redoing their inspirations one more time. Most of it won't be changed that much. But I found a decent inspiration meme that I'm gonna do at some point that's gonna feature my OCs.

Also...not sure when I'm gonna get around to this, but my short story collection I've mentioned before is going to be called Reignited Outtakes. And it's gonna feature some stuff related to the RPs I've been doing, either with my friends or with SOM, scenes from fanmakes I either would like to do or didn't have time to get around, Five Elements, some random comedy skits in between, or even just general one-shots to help build my characters better. Mostly it's just gonna be a way for me to practice my writing and hopefully for you to get to know my characters better.

At some point, I know I wouldn't mind doing my own RP group or my own series disconnected from the Five Elements, but I want to get the other stuff more together first before I can think of doing something like that.

Once again, thank you so much everyone for all of the support recently, including those that commented on my journal. I love you all so much and I'll try my best to be more active on here. ^^

I admit, I know I haven't been on as much outside of notes, submitting stuff through my gallery like memes or some of my artwork. And well, the status updates too, but that's not what I wanted to write this journal for.

I confess, it's largely due to the fact that I hadn't been in the right headspace since my dog passed away, I'm getting better, but I get old photo notifications from time to time and it still hurts. And I admit, right around when Covid was going on, I was still not in the right headspace and did some things, like the whole crediting incident I pulled (which was still not my finest hour). I had a few unpleasant moments during my time in the MCF too, and frankly I am super glad to have moved on from that. But the worst thing that happened was that during the crediting situation, I ended up losing a friendship with a good friend of mine from my former writing group because I got angry over their behavior. Some of it might've needed to be said, but not all of it, and I still hate myself for it. We forgave each other and are talking again, but we're not quite back to being the way we used too and I'm fine with that for now since I hurt them pretty badly before.

You can send me a note if you want to find out who exactly was the person, but I'd rather not say in the comments out of respect and don't expect I'd immediately respond.

Of course, there have been times where I do end up going back to my old habits at times: such as; over-thinking things that shouldn't be that difficult, accidentally spoiling things, getting a bit too eager about my writing getting better more than once...among some things. Like looking at shorts on Tiktok, Instagram,Youtube and thinking of my own OCs that may or may not work. But I'm working on it, my temper has gotten better over the past few years too as I've worked with a therapist, though I haven't quite gotten the chance to get a new one lately with everything going on. The only time I've ever gotten angry was the incident with two users bullying my friend, TimeBoy08 last year because he dared commented some honest input. I saw met him in person twice and he's actually a really funny, wonderful person in real life. I can't imagine why someone would go to this length to hate him over a few criticisms.

And I confess, while I no longer speak to this person, but there was this one user that I used to talk to from time to time that seemed to hate me and some of my other friends, like whenever I tried to get excited about something or try to go into a mini essay/rant directed towards me or my friends. It's partly why I didn't talk as much as I used to, but I've moved on since then. It's true, I might've spoiled things without meaning too and got in over my head at times, but this guy took it to the extreme..but I'm moving past that. Plus some other stupid user incidents that occurred on here, I don't want to get into (though some of you might know like that one stalker towards angelthewingedcat incident).

So since those incidents, I've been playing games, catching up on shows and Rping/chatting in the notes section with a few friends to improve my OCs. Even been trying to work on my drawing too, haven't gotten the motivation to put a lot of them up, but I hope to do so this year.

I went to New York last week and had a total blast, but I came home expecting to see my dog greet me like I usually did, that and it didn't particularly help that I saw a Westie on the streets of NYC when I used my new mobilized wheelchair. Which went smoothly and I even got to go to the Museum of Broadway/HP exhibit. No show this time, but I did wanted to see something like Hadestown, Merrily We Roll Along, Back to the Future, Six, Aladdin, or Play Goes Wrong. And I had fun regardless because we stayed on Roosevelt Island, and I may have tried to get some readings at the Smallpox Hospital (it..creeped me out by just looking at it, I won't lie).

I am hoping to put in a little bit more effort with my writing this year, like with the Short Stories, my Roleplay bios, and those character/world building stuff I've been doing for the Five Elements. I dunno when I'll try to get the motivation to do so, but I'll try the best I can and I'm hoping to get the Metal Gal story's planned and written out this year.

My apologies for the long post, but I wanted to give you guys an update. I love ya guys so much, and thanks for all the support these past few years. If it weren't for you guys, I don't think I'd stay on as much as I did.

God, it seems hardly yesterday I was still struggling with my bios and now look at me. Got the Spell Dazer story out of the way, my bios are done, half of my RP bios are done, with a side of doing some world building for School of Magic. Got to go to Florida and meet up with @TimeBoy08 and acquired for myself a lightsaber (Anakin Skywalker's specifically). Saw some fantastic films, some meh moments in between, but mostly it was a good year.

I've got some movies I'm looking forward too like Wicked Part One, Kung Fu Panda 4, Inside Out 2, Ghostbusters: Frozen Empire, Deadpool 3, Orion and the Dark, Mean Girls, Argylle, Kingdom of the Planet of the Apes, Joker 2, Beetlejuice 2, Sonic 3, Beyond the Spiderverse, Dune Part 2, Walpurgisnacht Rising...I can go on, but that'll require a meme to show off the movies I'm looking forward too

And I just noticed a lot of them are sequels next year Though I think I'm looking forward to KFP 4, Inside Out, Walpurgisnacht Rising, Orion and the Dark, Deadpool3, Beyond the Spiderverse, Sonic and Wicked more. Although, I understand that there's no definite date yet since the script is being worked on for Spiderverse and the strike that was going on. I'm still excited regardless.

I may have cancelled some of my fics, like the two fanmakes I wanted to do, but rest assured, I'm gonna do that short story collection at some point, so be on the lookout for it ^^

My main goal is to get the Metal Gal outline finished and posted next year before i work on the prologue story for the Five Elements universe that I've been working on with TimeBoy08, Sakura-Ange and angelthewingedcat. I'm just sorting out the details for Ben and Julie, Annie, Varian, Seamus, and Yang right now. But I think you guys are gonna be in for a real treat next year.

Once again, happy new year everyone!

~AlchemyHearts17

And just for fun..saw a meme earlier how today is the only time we'll get to say today's date is 123123

So, I admit, I know I've been quiet for a while. Believe me, it wasn't my intention to be so quiet. I've been slowly figuring out things like Scrivener and catching up on some games (Disney Dreamlight Valley, Sly Cooper, Genshin's Fontaine arc, Ventus's story in KH etc)

I admit, since the summer when my dog passed away, things have been, well..slow. Some days I just stay up because I'm not used to not expecting to help take care of my dog every day. But we made some fun memories for sure. I was able to go to Boston Comic Con, Anime Boston and ended up going to Florida too where I met up with @TimeBoy08.

I still can't believe it actually happened too. I got a freaking lightsaber and met Tara Strong! I think those were definitely the two big highlights of this year alongside meeting Madoka Kaname's VA. Though I think I was more excited about meeting Tara, my legs were shaking so much because I was meeting one of my childhood idols. I even got to go to a panel featuring the current voice of Ash after meeting Veronica Taylor a few years ago!

I saw some movies the past few months too, some of my favorites included Five Nights at Freddy's just because of the experience alone I hadn't seen that large of a crowd since Endgame, I kid you not. And someone had to come in a few times, my cousin was even laughing alongside myself because we had no idea what we were going into. We knew some, but not everything.

With my writing, its going okay, I've gotten most of my OCs pretty much figured out. I just really need to get some motivation going in order for me to write them. And given what a ride this year's been, I'm hoping next year is better. Fingers crossed. I'm still doing the RP that @angelthewingedcat and I started thanks to the huge help that @Darkdarling98 has been giving out to help build the RP better. And I admit, ever since I saw Wish, I've been considering doing a slight fix-it of sorts with the main leads, Asha and Magnifico. I just been catching up on some games and drawing to fully focus on SOM...apart from some NPC ideas.

My main goal for next year is to hopefully get the Metal Gal story finally up and running alongside the bios for Annie's, Seamus, Varian, Yang, Aurora, and Andromeda. Right now I've been making a bit of a guide list of relationships to help me get a sense of what I want for the twins' relationships with their friends and family and I plan to make a series of inspiration memes when I'm fully done.

OK enough of my rambling, but I just wanted to say thank you to those who supported me the past few months, despite my stubborn ass sometimes I've been getting slightly better since I started out and I hope to post another journal if I can before the year is out.

Love ya guys so much.